Facebook on vacation

Who ever thought Facebook can cause a lot of stress? From the spammy app invites to controversies and boyfriend (or ex) removing your relationship status and picture tags and flirting with tons of women then people asking you questions what's going on... All that you can see in your Facebook News Feed. I really had to deactivate it because I'm sooo disgusted with how things turned out to be. So there... My Facebook account died and went straight to heaven (or at least I thought so). Maybe I just had enough of the social media updates (And Yeah I had to agree -- F*ck Facebook). So how's life without Facebook? It's peaceful. I don't have to check it out because there's no need to anyway - I would end up stalking the profile of other people to find out what's going on in their private lives. Yeah, there's probably a very thin line when it comes to sharing your life to others and baring everything like it's an open book and they even have to find out how you spend time in the bathroom, how you eat and HOW YOU BRUSH YOUR TEETH ON YOUR PROFILE PICTURE - you think you're COOL HUH? Lame, lame, it's so LAME. Anyway, it's been very nice to get away from facebook for a few weeks. To the people close to me who loves Facebook, don't worry - I didn't mean to offend you. I'm just freaking pissed with some people (or a person) who made a big mistake in showing some attitude - You are the one who's UNBELIEVABLE and not me...

Stalk mode

Somehow, I'm guilty of stalking people in the internet. It probably has something to do with my current job - NO, it's not that I'm an NBI agent stuck on the body of a normal person but it's probably just the way I am. I've been this way for over a year now and trust me, it's not very exciting at all. I mean, my inner conscience is begging me to get a life outside the four corners of this house but I'm still stuck in the same routine and I never plan do something about it. I know, I'm blessed but I couldn't help myself from thinking that there might be more out there and I should not limit myself here at home. Maybe I need to explore the world not by stalking profiles but actually knowing more people personally and not just by merely staring at a photo of them at different social networking sites. Hmmm... so okay, I've had enough of this drama. Hey, don't get me wrong... don't think that I'm just another obsessed freak trying to take a peek of what's going on in the personal lives of other people, I'm doing that because I have a purpose (I even get paid for it). But my patience is getting weaker and weaker each day and I think that there will come a time that I'll be tired of being in "stalk mode".

Back to square one

I came back from Manila today and I'm very exhausted. This is probably the toughest week I had since last year of never ending trauma and confusion. I recalled the time when I was in the bus, I felt a nagging pain in my chest - take note, it's literally painful. It lasted for a few minutes on my chest then it went down to my lower left part of my ribcage then it was suddenly gone... I wonder what it is? Hmmm... I think I need to see a doctor.

Anyway, back to where I started - my trip to Manila was an exhausting and an enlightening one at the same time. A flood of realizations struck me and it has drowned me because I was not equipped with a life vest - I know was not ready for it but I kept on squeezing it on my brain hoping that all of the information that I got will eventually wake up my senses. But there I was groping for air, trying hard to contain myself from the blow after blow of discovery - both good and bad.

It's time for me to move forward once again. Like my favorite prayer: