Saying Goodbye to my Jamie Oliver

Saying goodbye is never easy... but I really have to! I know it's hard since I have gotten used to your 'kakulitan' and all that. But where exactly do you think we're going if we continue this insanity, huh? Oh well... I think I don't mean 'goodbye' in the sense that we are not going to rub elbows in the future, I think we just have to let it go (at the moment) because it's the best thing to do right now...

I'm sad and this is not the first time I felt this kind of sadness that is asphyxiating. I just want to let you know that I feel for you too, deep in my gut, I really do care for you even if you think I don't. I'm gonna miss your voice over the phone... Hmmm... It's gonna echo in my head for some time.

Well, if you think I'm crazy - maybe I really am? I've been thinking about you and how you are in the kitchen. I imagine you getting your apron and cooking away. In my mind I can smell the freshly cooked dinner that you have prepared for the two of us... but will it just happen in my head? Maybe I have to let it go now and do my thing. Maybe someday, we can really be together when everything is okay.